pls take me away

i cried like macam nak gila punya semalam.ahaha.nk thu sebab apa?
because of this song:
i miss you
i miss you so bad
i dont forget you
ouh its so sad
i hope u can hear me
i remember it clearly
a day you slipped away
was the day i felt it wont be the same -slipped away
to those yg dpt messages frm me pagi2 buta tuh,huu.sorry laa
unstable emotion.
to u,yes.YOU.
i didnt gve u msgs not bcause i frgt u
it just.
it hurts.like hell punya sakit.
thts why im nt gvng u even a sngle text.
u wont be replying pun kan.
i knw it.
stupid.yes i am.fr real.
i missed my mum
i missed calling ibu over n over again
i missed everything about her
yes i did n i always do
take me away.
pls.

once again

hari nie aku menulis lagi.
bila tinggal sorang2 nie, macam2 yg kta boleh fikir.
last night ive had one long conversation with my guy frnd
he's a nice guy.
he asked me, tht guy in my profile pic tuh,bf ke?
i said,no he isnt.why?
naa.u guys look great together.he likes u kan?
yup,but naa.u knw me.i wont say yes
dun be afraid of rejection lahh.many guys out there wants to be with u as ur bf thu tak.
err.tak tahu actually.hahaha :D
and actually taknak cerita pasal nie pun.nak cerita pasal.yes.im writing right now.
nak mencapai cita2 yang diidamkan dari dulu.nak publishkan a book about things happened around me.
tapi baru frst chapter je dah kiok.hahaha.
rupanya susah nak menulis nnie.kalau nak merapu boleh laa
sbb susah nak mantain dia punya storyline tuh
aiseh.macam mna nie.selalunya orng buat ada 50 chapters.
takkan aku nak buat 10 chapters jee kot.
but after all,i wont be giving up.
kena habiskan jugak.kan?
ganbatte! :D
semua orang dah balik rumah.aku nie bila ntah tak tahu laa.
tp maybe balik kot.
1 muharram aku jejak kaki kat rumah.jangan risau :)
orng tanya, gaduh ke sampai taknak balik rumah nie?
bukanlah.tak gaduh.memang rindu nak balik rumah pun.
cuma.it just.entahlah.
its a weird feeling though.
rasa macam awkward balik rumah sendiri.
tak  tahu nak buat apa.
i wish she's still here.
tak kisahlah nak membebel hari2 ke apa ke
tak kisah
as long as she still there.waiting for me in front of the door
giving me a warm hug i ever had in this life
accompany me during meal.
how i missed all those time
tapi macam  isaac cakap,
those kind of things lahh yang buat kita appreciate life more.
yes.ure totally right dude.thanks a lot kawan :)

me:asal selama nie aku tak pernah thu pun ada petua2 macam nie?

aan:sbb selama nie kau hilang dari radar n sekarang baru nak muncul

okayy.this is it.tak thu laa knapa aku mcm dah selalu dgr bnda2 nie.knapa aku hilang,lari,and so on.

serious shit aku mcm tak tahu mcm mna nk explain bnda nie.takkan ada orng yg nk lari.tp apa yg aku rasa tak sma dgn apa yg korang sume fikir.mungkin aku sbnrnya menyalahkan takdir or salahkan diri sendiri.shame on u aishah.but what past is past.dah takde nak turning back ke apa ke.sekarang nie,cuma kena cuba fix kan everything balik je.though act bukan perkara yang senang nak fix kan balik diri nie dlm hidup orng yg diorang dh ada experience bnyk bnda without a person named aecha.

close case.

akma:terharu nya aku dngr cerita kau nie.kau patut buat comic ouh

me:tp aku tak pandai lukis

akma:suruh laa abng mizi ke sape ke lukiskan

me:lebih baik aku buat novel jee

akma:haa!yg nie aku setuju.kau pun memang ada talent nk buat bnda nie sume kan

me:tp aku tak pro lagi laa format nk tulis ayat kat novel

akma:takpe.buat kecik2 je.hntr cerpen kat magazines dulu ke

me:tgk laa.aku cuba.tp kau bukannya suka baca pun

akma:hee.memanglaa.tp kalau kau brjaya tulis,aku laa orng yg paling bngga kau thu tak

me:yelaa tuh akma

hmm.perhaps.someday.aku akan publish kan jugak karya2 aku.korang mesti baca tau!

nota kaki:sape je yg bukak bnda nie.aku rasa aku sorang jee.

if u ever find urself stuck in the middle of the sea.

ill sail the world to find u

if u ever find urself in the dark n u cant see

ill be the light to guide u

find out what we'll made up

when we are caught to help our friends in need

u can count on me like 1 2 3 

ii'll be there

n i know when i need it i can count on u like 4 3  2

n u'll be there

cause thats what friends are supposed to do ouh yeah :)

currently listening to this song.it meant a lot to me.so do u?haha :D

be strong :)

it has been such a long time since i last wrote on this kann :)
nothing to be shared.sbb tak keluar rumah,tak pegi mana2 pun.huu.
dah start cuti pun actually tp tak balik2 jb lagi.
a few days ago i discovered something.
dimana rupa rupanya i was abandoned.
is tht really the word?haha.perhaps.
the rest is history.takmau cerita.sbb bila cerita,i knw i'll hurt myself.
sakit rasanya bila orng ignore je kita kan.as if i dun exist in this world anymore.no one care.
am i sick or something?
i think i am.
somebody.help me.
i know.i need to be stronger than before.